80 Random Facts About Me

1.I have the biggest sweet tooth in the universe
2.I’ve almost been married twice.
3.I check Zodiac compatibility when I meet people
4.I can watch the movie Titanic over and over again
5.I own a BOB (battery operated buddy)
6.I worry about my future more than I need to.
7.I want to get old with my husband and want to die before he does
8.I bite my finger-nails
9.I can’t ride a bicycle
10.I played with dolls until I was 16
11.I would never have an abortion myself, but I am pro-choice.
12.At the age of 14, I thought I could pregnant by kissing someone
13.I love my mom to death and would do anything for her happiness
14.I love to smile
15.I think gay people should be allowed to get married.
16.I worry a lot
17.I believe in fairytales
18.I love my Indo-Fijian background
19.I don’t eat beef; by choice
20.I love easily
21.I skipped an entire semester of high school but graduated an entire semester early
22.I can’t swim but I love the waters
23.I’ve always wanted to be a lawyer
24.I am terrified of heights
25.I love spicy food
26.I hate onions. I mean, I really hate them and I can't understand why on earth anyone eats them.
27.I would like to learn Spanish so I can hold an ongoing conversation in Spanish with someone one day
28.I like kitchen aid mixers; I want a red and chrome one when I get my own house
29.I had the hugest crush on Lance Bass from ‘Nsync. I still listen to their music
30.I spent my 21st birthday at the hospital because I had an outbreak of shingles
31.I was poisoned by a centipede in Fiji when I was 5-6 years old. I didn’t go to the hospital
32.I dislike smokers
33.I honestly believe that men and women can be friends without agendas.
34.I do not carry any pictures in my wallet
35.I dance and sing out loud randomly
36.I wanted to be a stripper when I was 16
37.I’ve been poor before. So poor that we didn’t have food in the house to eat and almost lost our house. I never want to be poor again
38.I once paid a $1000 bill at a vet’s office for a cat that I didn’t even own
39.I never liked history and geography in school
40.I get lost very easily
41.I love surprises
42.I don't tell my family and friends how much they mean to me enough. I hope they know.
43.I love the smell of fresh cut grass
44.I hate driving
45.My favorite season is fall
46.I love fresh cherries but can’t stand anything cherry flavored
47.I love watching cartoons
48.I enjoy cooking
49.I am an over achiever
50.I love technology
51.I think all flowers are beautiful
52.I love getting hand written letters from time to time but hate writing them myself.
53.I am not the world's greatest speller. (I am too dependent on my spell check.)
54.I like my pizza with ranch dressing
55.My favorite drink is sweet iced tea
56.Sometimes, I’m afraid of the dark
57.I can’t watch horror movies or gruesome (Saw, Hostel) movies
58.I am a bargain shopper
59.I love rainy days and stormy nights
60.I hate roller coasters
61.My first car was a 1991 Honda Accord
62.I love presents! Giving and receiving.
63.I am very impatient
64.I think sex is an amazing invention.
65.I miss my grandpa tremendously
66.I have never broken a bone
67.I don't have a "type"
68.I love potatoes
69.I cannot keep my room tidy
70.I love sad lyrics *no I’m not an emo*
71.I love to bake
72.I’m not ticklish
73.I like my coffee made with milk; just milk 2%
74.I am somewhat religious. I believe in GOD
75.I love to see people smile but suck at joking
76.I am bisexual
77.My favorite color is pink
78.My favorite numbers are 27, 2 and 4
79.I'm extremely loyal. I keep my friends forever and ever.
80.My middle name has my first name in it. Romi Romika Lal

The Move

I've lived in California from the day I arrived to the United States. Its become a hate/love relationship now. I love it here because I have so many people that I know here. Families right here too... Friends are all over the place... but no jobs! After 12 years, I have decided, I'm moving. Where to? Austin, Texas. Yes, out of California. Now that's a leap for me. I've never lived on my own... always stayed with mom and now all of a sudden, I'm moving out alone to a unknown city... damn UNKNOWN STATE!

I must tell you, I'm scared. Very scared. What if I don't make it. What if I end up just wasting my time. What if... Right now all I can think of is what if something goes wrong with my car. I have Donald, my brother-in-law here but I won't have anyone there. Oh Jesus! I am terrified of this move. Someone Help! Should I do it? Yes, No? Help me!

Scared of Lonely

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AIxriw0LYc

Prince Charming

Remember those fairy tales from when you were younger... the ones where a handsome prince comes along and sweeps the Princess off her feet... or my favorite, Cinderella.

Growing up, I always believed that one day, my prince charming will also come along and sweep me off my feet. Now he might not take me to a white castle on top of a mountain but I always thought that I would be loved... unconditionally by that special someone. Someone who will remember little things about me. Someone who will brush the hair from my face, look into my eyes and tell me that he loves me. Someone who will wipe my tears away when I cry and give me the tightest hugs when I'm sad. He who will hold my hand and walk down the beach with me... leaving both footprints on the sand and in my heart....

As I grew up to be the woman I am today, I realized that fairy tales are called fairy tales for a reason... they aren't reality. I met some great young men who very politely decided to step all over my heart and leave it bruised... I learned... and realized. My prince charming wont come. I stopped believing. I lost faith... until today.

Today I realized, they do exist. After seeing the newly married, Mr & Mrs Karan Gupta, I believe that one day, I too will find my prince. My inspiration: Karan Gupta. He loves my friend who is just like a sister, to death! He remembers the little things... like how she likes the red flakes on her pizza and what she wore on certain dates. Its adorable. Hes loving, caring and sweet. I took the liberty of telling him today, Jija *brother in law* I don't think they make em like you anymore.

I just want to thank the couple for reviving the hope one more time. Thank you and may god bless you two forever. I love you both and hope that you fall in love with each other daily...

May the dream live... I sit in hopes that one day my prince charming will come along... sweep me off my feet and love me unconditionally....

A Helping Hand

“If two friends ask you to judge a dispute, don't accept, because you will lose one friend; on the other hand, if two strangers come with the same request, accept because you will gain one friend. “
--Saint Augustine

I am not a great human being nor am I a saint, but I do try to do my part in making this world a better, happier place to live. Throughout the many years of pain and agony I have experienced as a human being, I have learned one wise lesson. Helping others in time of need makes your heart lighter.

I'm not sure if you can relate to this but whenever I help someone I feel good about myself. It’s that feeling you get inside. Yes, I did some good today. For example: helping a blind person cross the road. That’s rather cliché but yes, many of us do that. I have before. But I have also done the simpler things like helping a drunk friend get food in his mouth because he didn't know how to.

Each time I have helped another, the feeling of goodness is never more than the first time nor is it less. Today, I helped out a total stranger but in doing so, I gained a friend. That’s a great feeling in itself.

So, remember, the next time you see someone having difficulty crossing the road or even trying to carry groceries out to their car, lend a helping hand. Then tell me how it felt. I'm eagerly waiting to know your story.

Smile

I was watching parts of the Michael Jackson tribute online and I heard Brooke Shields mention the song "Smile" by Charlie Chaplin to be MJ's favorite song. Now, I've never really heard the song but when she mentioned the lyrics, I felt like I wanted to at least look it up. So here are the lyrics:

Smile
tho'
your heart is aching,
Smile
Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you
Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Those are the best words I have read for a long time! Its true. A smile is the cure for many things. It lights up your face, gives you a natural glow! When you smile you feel sorrow free for that moment. Just like the lyrics, it feels like the clouds are breaking through! Even if someone is having a bad day when you smile at them, they mostly smile back. I even read somewhere that when you smile, you can improve your mood. Now that's free therapy.

So, the next time you feel down or blah! just smile or look for someone who is smiling at you so you can force a smile. Do something for yourself. Improve your mood.

PS: I have been told that I have a rather pretty smile... I get a lot of free therapy :)

Life

I went from working in an office to cleaning one.

Life has been a rollercoster for me. I'm sure it's been that way for many people but I can only write about mine.

Life was good before I went to India. I had an okay paying job which enabled me to pay rent and for my car. All that ended when my arranged marriage was arranged.

I left for India on May 8th. I was supposed to get married to this stranger on June 1st, 2009 and return home on June 28th. While there he was going to pay for everything here.

Things weren't what I anticipated once I got to India. To cut a long story short, let's just say I came home single and earlier then planned. Once I came back, the problems began.

I was jobless and broke. Rent was due, car payment was due and life hadn't paused just because things weren't going as planned. I had to get up and do something fast!

I started applying for Pharmacy Technician jobs right away. (I'm a nationally certified Pharmacy Tech) After about 2 weeks, I started applying for administrative work as I have experience in that field. Its been 6 weeks since I returned from India and I must have applied for at least 100 jobs but I haven't gotten one call back.

Rent was still due and so were bills. Finding no other option, I asked my brother for help. He in turn told me that he has a couple of accounts for janitorial work. I have never cleaned a building in my life but having no other option, I agreed.

Its exhausting and a lot of hard work. Let me just tell you, I have a lot of respect for Custodians and Janitors now. They work their behinds off! I'm still looking for work, still applying daily but still haven't received any calls back. But I'm not giving up hope.

Working as a Janitor made me more humble. Made me realize what life is all about and most importantly, it made me go back to school to earn my Bachelors so I can have an education to back me up. Don't get me wrong, I am educated now but not as much as I want to be. But thanks to cleaning offices, I am back to being a student with high hope of working in an office again.

Confidence

Self confidence: assurance: freedom from doubt; belief in yourself and your abilities.

So with that noted, how many people do you know that actually have self-confidence? I know I don't. I'm always doubting myself. Can I do this? Is this really me? Will this look good? Does this make me look fat?

There isn't one day of my life when I have woken up and felt like, yes, today I can do whatever I want. Pretty sad, I know.

BUT today, after talking to a friend for about an hour, I realized something. Self-confidence is something I have to build. I think all my life, I have been looking for confirmation from others to be who I am. Does that make any sense?

I've always wanted to be accepted by others. Too many times I will pick out a shirt, a dress or pants, look at it twice maybe thrice and put it down. Internally, I like it but I think, people might think I'm weird for wearing that. Always worried about what others have to say or what others might think.

It wasn't until today that I realized, thats not me. Yes, it took me 24 years to figure that out...

So, from today... I have made a decision. No more living my life for others- I'm living for me. Because if I am happy, people that matter to me will be happy. And if they aren't, then they shouldn't matter to me.